[ but he's convinced himself he doesn't care. when his entire coven had been slaughtered and scattered to the wind, he hadn't given up. even now, revenge fuels him. ]
You don't seem to believe me when I say I can do anything. I'm not going to beg you. I'm not even going to try to convince you. You'll want it badly enough one day that you'll finally give in and ask.
i do want them. of course i do. it's like missing a limb. i still forget they're not there. but they'll only be a liability to me now. is it so terribly important to convince everyone around you that you can do anything?
I don't know enough about you to tell you that. I'm just telling you what I see.
Some of it isn't about convincing anyone. I want to know I can do it. Then I can put to rest the things that have been taken from me. Like I said, I have time.
[ rune doesn't reply for a while, at least an hour, but it's mostly because he's making arrangements to meet the person he'd come to see. after, he scrolls through their conversation and sighs. ]
you can't change it. sofija's memories have been destroyed. you'll never beat the unseelie court at their own game. and i won't risk mika's life for you to have the chance to show off.
do you want me to miss you? do you ever have the desire for anyone to think of you that way?
what do you want me to do? try to get out of my contract? make my way back to faerie? renege on this deal? and when mika suffers for it, what then? you don't care about her. you don't even care about me. this is entirely about you.
will that make you feel fulfilled and important? you're so desperate to chase after approval and you don't even know it.
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[ but he's convinced himself he doesn't care. when his entire coven had been slaughtered and scattered to the wind, he hadn't given up. even now, revenge fuels him. ]
You don't seem to believe me when I say I can do anything.
I'm not going to beg you.
I'm not even going to try to convince you.
You'll want it badly enough one day that you'll finally give in and ask.
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you?
i do want them. of course i do.
it's like missing a limb. i still forget they're not there.
but they'll only be a liability to me now.
is it so terribly important to convince everyone around you that you can do anything?
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I'm just telling you what I see.
Some of it isn't about convincing anyone.
I want to know I can do it.
Then I can put to rest the things that have been taken from me.
Like I said, I have time.
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ah.
so you're only trying to convince yourself.
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I really don't care what you do with it.
This isn't about convincing myself.
Maybe I want you to believe me.
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you have a long way to go for that.
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So ask me nicely when you change your mind.
Is there anything else you wanted?
I'm busy right now.
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go be busy.
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Should I come rescue you?
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you miss me, don't you?
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Do you miss me?
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it's a short list, though.
even you're on it.
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Are you going to answer me or not?
[ he means about saving him. ]
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even if you think you're helping.
i think it bothers you when you feel helpless.
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I was asking to be nice.
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i'm not sure you know what true kindness is.
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I'm sure you know exactly what true kindness is, right?
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and yes. i do know it. i had a wonderful example in my wife.
[ might as well tell him he's married. ]
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[ he doesn't care about lynx or his wife or his daughter. frankly, he doesn't care about this conversation. ]
Why do you keep talking to me?
Because you want to insult me?
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what happened to them was because i was selfish.
i wanted to do what i wanted to do.
i was talking to you because i missed you.
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Crying about it all the time is just as selfish.
You don't miss me, Lynx.
You just don't have anyone else.
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and i won't risk mika's life for you to have the chance to show off.
do you want me to miss you?
do you ever have the desire for anyone to think of you that way?
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Can't is something a quitter says.
I guess I thought differently about you.
I don't want you to miss me.
I want you to need me.
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try to get out of my contract? make my way back to faerie? renege on this deal?
and when mika suffers for it, what then?
you don't care about her.
you don't even care about me.
this is entirely about you.
will that make you feel fulfilled and important?
you're so desperate to chase after approval and you don't even know it.
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It's never been about me.
You could do more with your life than waste it.
But clearly I know nothing about that.
You don't understand me at all.
I don't need your approval or anyone else's.
I'm going to prove them all wrong.
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