I did not tell you because I enjoy getting my way. Because I wanted you here with me.
[ sort of a confession. lynx has no interest in labeling this. he's done far too much with his life already to care about any of that now. ]
They told me they would not hurt you. For now. That is enough for me. [ it won't last forever, but it's something. he has time before he has to think about the court again. ] I do not wish to discuss this further with you.
[ a statement sure to spark rune's ire once more, but he doesn't let go of his wrist, drawing it close to he can press rune's hand to his chest, his heartbeat steady despite his state. ]
I have no need for your protection. I do not mean to make you feel helpless, but you already know I cannot lie to you. They will not kill me. I am not afraid of them. I am only afraid that you will leave again.
[ rune grits his teeth. more than anything, this feels like lynx manipulating him for his own gain. or maybe for something else. he doesn't know, and not for the first time, he hates that his magic had dropped him into the middle of the dahlia. if he hadn't, then he wouldn't feel so indebted to lynx for helping him, and he certainly wouldn't be dealing with whatever this is right now. it only seizes and ebbs when he feels the warmth of him, the echo of his pulse strong. ]
Sometimes I think you forget that I am not human. I'm not soft like they are. [ i'm not your wife, he wants to say but doesn't. instead, he bites at the tip of his tongue. ] If you want me to stay, talk to me. Omission might as well be the same as lying.
[ he'd rather not try to read between the lines in a language he doesn't know, and gently, he curls his fingers in lynx's shirt. ]
And having no need for my protection isn't the same as me wanting to give it. You've already done the same for me.
I know you are not human. But I am still a faerie, and I do not wish to sever all ties to my people. No matter how cruel their treatment seems to your eyes.
[ it's a difficult thing to explain. lynx feels like the words don't exist to fully describe what it's like to be fae, although perhaps rune would understand it more easily than a human. but more easily still does not mean easy. ]
Would I have seen you again? [ slowly, he loosens his grip on rune's hand, looking up at him despite the ache behind his eyes. ] If you had not fallen right into my lap, so to speak, would you have come to me? Tell me the truth.
rune doesn't care for it, but there's very little he actually cares for. and maybe he doesn't really understand the cruelty for what it is even if he comprehends why. it's a stupid punishment. then again, rune's also meant to suffer, and it's why he tries his best to keep his distance. ]
I didn't want to leave you. [ which isn't an answer, but he's getting there. his expression thins, eyes narrowed at his temple and the stained fall of lynx's hair. ] So, yes, I would have come to you. There's no one else.
[ there's ciro, always, but that's still too much. admitting that is too much. ]
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[ sort of a confession. lynx has no interest in labeling this. he's done far too much with his life already to care about any of that now. ]
They told me they would not hurt you. For now. That is enough for me. [ it won't last forever, but it's something. he has time before he has to think about the court again. ] I do not wish to discuss this further with you.
[ a statement sure to spark rune's ire once more, but he doesn't let go of his wrist, drawing it close to he can press rune's hand to his chest, his heartbeat steady despite his state. ]
I have no need for your protection. I do not mean to make you feel helpless, but you already know I cannot lie to you. They will not kill me. I am not afraid of them. I am only afraid that you will leave again.
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Sometimes I think you forget that I am not human. I'm not soft like they are. [ i'm not your wife, he wants to say but doesn't. instead, he bites at the tip of his tongue. ] If you want me to stay, talk to me. Omission might as well be the same as lying.
[ he'd rather not try to read between the lines in a language he doesn't know, and gently, he curls his fingers in lynx's shirt. ]
And having no need for my protection isn't the same as me wanting to give it. You've already done the same for me.
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[ it's a difficult thing to explain. lynx feels like the words don't exist to fully describe what it's like to be fae, although perhaps rune would understand it more easily than a human. but more easily still does not mean easy. ]
Would I have seen you again? [ slowly, he loosens his grip on rune's hand, looking up at him despite the ache behind his eyes. ] If you had not fallen right into my lap, so to speak, would you have come to me? Tell me the truth.
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rune doesn't care for it, but there's very little he actually cares for. and maybe he doesn't really understand the cruelty for what it is even if he comprehends why. it's a stupid punishment. then again, rune's also meant to suffer, and it's why he tries his best to keep his distance. ]
I didn't want to leave you. [ which isn't an answer, but he's getting there. his expression thins, eyes narrowed at his temple and the stained fall of lynx's hair. ] So, yes, I would have come to you. There's no one else.
[ there's ciro, always, but that's still too much. admitting that is too much. ]