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[ceremonious]

Maybe you'll stop moping and do something about the situation you're in.

[veile]

i am not mopey.
and if i am, it's a recent development only because i've been sitting in a cage for three days.
i'll be back to my usual sparkling self when i'm out.

[ceremonious]

You don't sparkle.
You're dim. You've forgotten how to live.

But do whatever you want.
I'll think about doing it for you one day if you ask nicely.

[veile]

[ he sighs to himself. even if there was an ounce of truth to rune's accusation, it wouldn't change the circumstances. ]

i haven't forgotten how to live.
i'm grieving a loss. there's a difference.

now i have to ask?
i'm surprised you're not planning on appearing out of thin air and throwing pixie dust at me.

[ceremonious]

I don't think you know that.

[ but he's convinced himself he doesn't care. when his entire coven had been slaughtered and scattered to the wind, he hadn't given up. even now, revenge fuels him. ]

You don't seem to believe me when I say I can do anything.
I'm not going to beg you.
I'm not even going to try to convince you.
You'll want it badly enough one day that you'll finally give in and ask.

[veile]

then who would?
you?

i do want them. of course i do.
it's like missing a limb. i still forget they're not there.
but they'll only be a liability to me now.
is it so terribly important to convince everyone around you that you can do anything?

[ceremonious]

I don't know enough about you to tell you that.
I'm just telling you what I see.

Some of it isn't about convincing anyone.
I want to know I can do it.
Then I can put to rest the things that have been taken from me.
Like I said, I have time.

[veile]

should i tell you all my deepest hurts so you can better tell me how i'm wasting my life away?

ah.
so you're only trying to convince yourself.

[ceremonious]

No.
I really don't care what you do with it.

This isn't about convincing myself.
Maybe I want you to believe me.

[veile]

i don't think anyone does anymore.

you have a long way to go for that.

[ceremonious]

[ and whose fault is that? ]

So ask me nicely when you change your mind.

Is there anything else you wanted?
I'm busy right now.

[veile]

no.
go be busy.

[ceremonious]

[ rune doesn't reply for a while, at least an hour, but it's mostly because he's making arrangements to meet the person he'd come to see. after, he scrolls through their conversation and sighs. ]

Should I come rescue you?

[veile]

do you want to be locked in here with me that badly?
you miss me, don't you?

[ceremonious]

That's not why I'm asking.
Do you miss me?

[veile]

right now i miss everyone.
it's a short list, though.
even you're on it.

[ceremonious]

I don't want to be on some list.
Are you going to answer me or not?

[ he means about saving him. ]

[veile]

i don't want you to interfere.
even if you think you're helping.

i think it bothers you when you feel helpless.

[ceremonious]

I'm not the one who's helpless right now.
I was asking to be nice.

[veile]

don't take this the wrong way.
i'm not sure you know what true kindness is.

[ceremonious]

There isn't any way to take that.
I'm sure you know exactly what true kindness is, right?

[veile]

kindness isn't doing what someone has already told you not to.
and yes. i do know it. i had a wonderful example in my wife.

[ might as well tell him he's married. ]

[ceremonious]

And I'm sure kindness was loving her when I assume you weren't supposed to.

[ he doesn't care about lynx or his wife or his daughter. frankly, he doesn't care about this conversation. ]

Why do you keep talking to me?
Because you want to insult me?

[veile]

it wasn't.
what happened to them was because i was selfish.
i wanted to do what i wanted to do.

i was talking to you because i missed you.

[ceremonious]

So what does it matter if I want to change that?
Crying about it all the time is just as selfish.

You don't miss me, Lynx.
You just don't have anyone else.